Why do I keep getting off track? Life and kids are the only two things I can come up with. I got off track before Thanksgiving and Christmas. I had my surgery in January, spent Feb not allowed to lift and recovering. Now that it's March it's time to get back on track.
It seems like I always lose about 20 pounds and then get off track. I looked on my Spark people page and noticed I've gained 4 pounds since my post in September. I know that I was down more than that though. I'm sick of being fat, but I can't seem to get myself going.
I keep thinking to myself "My husband doesn't have a problem with my body, why should I". The problem being is that I'm not happy with my body. I need to get back to the pissed off phase that I was in when I lost all the weight before I had my 4th child. I need my Dr to say something to me like he did before. He wasn't ugly when he said it, but I was pmsing and it just pissed me off. I need that again. Maybe I should call up my beloved Dr. and get him to say it again.
I need a workout buddy. Someone who depends on me to be there and push them and they will turn around and push me as well.
I need TIME! Having 6 kids, having 4 of those 6 home all day every day,homeschooling, a hubby who works night shift and a strange schedule at that, baby sitting and just every day life things I'm having a hard time fitting in exercise. Not long ago I homeschooled my oldest which was nice because she could baby sit while I went to the gym for an hour or so. She's back in public school so that's a no go. I've got to sit down and think of something that is going to work for me. I'm thinking I might have to sit down and do this week by week as my baby sitting schedule changes weekly!
Today I'm starting over by drinking my 8 glasses of water a day. I've been only drinking 1-2 glasses a day. That's horrible! I'm starting with this and will figure the rest out as I go!
Jess
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